Thanksgiving

So time to become a sap!
Those that know me well know about my past with my family and why i moved out of home at the age of 12 and why i absolutely hate my parents! (i promise it is an amazingly good reason!) But to catch everyone else up in a brief statement... My parents are inconsiderate, selfish, two faced, gossip spreading, childish morons that just plain and simply suck!! Ok with that being said, my parents and I don't get along at all, in fact I cant remember the last point in my life that I had anything that could be considered even as a normal relationship with my mother! We have spent more years trying to ruin and hate on each other than we have trying to get along! In fact just recently when I tried to reach out to my mother and tell her that I wanted to fix things between us so that we could at least be on speaking terms, her response was simply that she was happy without me in her life, that things were better for her without me in her life and that she currently has to much stress in her life that she can't and doesnt want to add me ontop of all that! So if that doesnt give you the just on the type of woman my mother is... than I guess nothing will!
When it comes to family holidays for years my fiance and I have just spent them at home alone because we didnt really have anyone.  The kids are with their mother for holidays and with just the two of us it was easier to sleep threw holidays than deal with the pain that usually follows behind the holiday and in realizing that life sucks when it comes to this thing everyone calls family!
Now why I said I was going to be a sap....Since the birth of my first and eldest god son, i really have not had to face those bad feelings thank you to his mother and my very amazeing friend!
I sat today in a house full of family and for once I felt like I belonged! That's right at akmost 30 years old I finally feel like I belong somewhere! I sat with both my god sons, their parents, grand parents, aunt and great grandparents as well as a few friends and even tho it is not my family... I really felt like I belonged there and that is something that I have never been able to say! I sat feeding my almost 2 week old god son looking around and fighting back the tears because for once I was somewhere I really felt valued for everything i had done both for my god son and for his parents!
So now for my thank yous... Thank you a million times over to dar and ren for making me feel like I have a family! For welcoming me and shawn in and giving me everything I have always lacked in my life!For giving me 2 very amazeing god sons and the chance to be part of something that no one had ever wanted or gave me the chance to be a part of!  I couldn't ask for a better "hand picked family" even from my own flesh and blood!  I love you guys and I want you to know that nothing could make me any better of a person than the amazeing family and times that i get to spend with them!  Thank you so very very very much!

Ok so there you have it my first sappy post and probably the only one you will ever get from me unless it is about Jakob and the time I get with him!
Happy thanksgiving to all my happy canadian friends... this holiday truly is something to be thankful for... that and the the people and things we get to have because we live in the most amazeing country ever!